Day 14: write about something you believe in, anything at all
something I believe in.
I believe that if you love someone enough, you always will. I used to think that wasn’t true myself. Like if you lost a friend or even someone you dated you would stop loving them. Like a way to get around the pain you would feel after something like that — or to forget the pain you felt. Up until 2 years ago I had told myself that. But now I believe anything it possible to be honest.
No matter what happens between two people, or distance that grows between them — anything at all. You can still love those people as much as you can. Possibly until the day you die. I recently lost a friend of mine, and even though I shouldn’t care as much about it I still love her. She was someone I got very close to. And even if i’m not happy with her for the things shes done for me I can’t erase the good times we shared ect.
I don’t remember it. Other than my friends all helping me down this steep hill with rocks cause I couldn’t walk. And I remember crying — a lot. And my friend Mason driving my car home and bringing me to my mom. Everything else between the time I got home and hit the couch I blacked out.
I hate getting that way. All I do is cry and want my mom like a 2 year old cause im feeling miserable.
I’ve been a bit off today, probably because what this day actually means to me. So I suppose being on tumblr right now isn’t the best idea. I started my new meds today and they make me feel a bit dizzy no matter what I do. And I bought a bunch of healthy food today, cause i’m going on a diet lol.
I sent out Chelsea’s birthday card, and my friends birthday presents. So now im just going to nap until I have work.
Then hanging out with friends tonight and doing some well needed stupid ness. At least im not doing it to drown out my feelings this time..I suppose this time is to have a good time. Or try to, regardless of how ‘this’ day goes.